work or play

when is the line drew between work and play? it is unqiue to each individual. i cannot force mine on you and you cannot force me to change mine too. that's why i refuse toexplain when friends are asking not to work too hard and too much. we all have our own priorities and i guess we share different opinions.

i truly admire those who have mastered that skill, especially successful married career women with kids in the family. i am not trying to be biased but we women tend to be more emotional. for me, when i am tied down with commitments, i will not put my own interests in the first place anymore. i will think more for the other party ( it sounds like a silly thing to do but it is just like that for me). how am i supposed to juggle work and play? should i be with my kid when he/she is still a toddler? if yes, how about my career and my free time? i do not have the intentions to stop working when i have settled down. i want to work till i cannot work anymore maybe in my seventies or so.

working is taking a lot of my time now, leaving me with limited time spent with my family and friends. my dinner time has been pushed back to close to 9pm due to work. the only time slot i am free for my friends are my pathetic weekends. i only have about 3 hours per day with my parents. see, i am having problems with work and play now. how am i supposed to know how to juggle work and play together?

i am not going to blame anyone for this. i choose to live my life in this way and i have to pay for my decisions. i just learnt something from here. in life, i cannot expect myself to have everything in the world. i need to make sacrifices along the way to grow.

"learn it in the hardest way"